Well, [it being] 37 minutes is crazy. If I knew that, I probably would’ve ended it right away. Let’s be honest, there was probably more than toe sucking.
It was also so severely downplayed to me that it honestly seemed like a jokeâ¦but entering a room where people are not clothed, where it’s clearly a sexual environmentâ¦.If I had all of the knowledge, then I would’ve probably made a better decision again, even for my physical health, because that is something that is totally not okay.
What were you told about it at the time?
So I went home for the weekend to support my family, and Jesse was calling me. He called me [like] 38 times in 48 hours. I’m like, there’s no way this man could be doing anything crazy. I was feeling really good.
He calls me when he gets back to the city and he says his cousinâs friends stayed over, they liked him. He went into the room, stood in the doorway to see if they were okay or needed anything. I was like, âwell, you shouldn’t enter that room. That was so weird.â Now Iâm seeing well, that’s definitely not what happened.
So you didnât think anything had actually happened sexually?
No. I thought that the door was open, and other housemates were in there. It was a joke. I thought our housemates were in the kitchen, and he was in there for maybe three minutes, put his foot on the bed was like, ha ha. That’s how it was kind of relayed. Now I watch it and that’s not what happened.
And you only learned the truth when the episode aired?
Yeah, I didn’t find out the details. On the after show, he said, âyeah, no, there was no way I was telling Lexi.â Which again sucks, because I definitely feel like that took away a lot of my autonomy, especially because we went exclusive right after that, and we were exclusive before that.
We have now watched up to episode 10 of this season. Do you think your relationship has been portrayed accurately so far?
I think it’s difficult because I think it was, but there was so much going on behind my back. He was waking up in my bed every day. I do feel like everyone knew how serious we were from day one. But obviously now watching that, seeing everything that he was saying behind my back. He was really good at manipulating everyone. So telling me things about [the housemates], telling them things about me, that’s, let’s be honest, probably aren’t true.
I think it’s difficult to watch, but I think we had more cute moments than have been shown. But I feel like there was so much drama behind the scenes that I was unaware of. Now, as much as it’s hard to watch, I also think it shows that instinct that I had that I feel like I almost ignored really was right. And that when it should always go with instinct no matter what the environment is or what the situation is.