It’s a long story, but after the wedding day, I was so flustered. I was very confident with my answer, but I still had hope that we would still be together and figure things out and try because I put so much emotion and time in this person that I didn’t want that to be wasted. We met each other in such a beautiful, awesome, rare moment and I was thinking it was meant to be. Like fate. Like we crossed paths for a reason, and I don’t want to just to stop.
So after the wedding day and filming was over—like, back to real life—I was going to go back to my nursing contract in Nashville, Tennessee. Throughout filming, we had the discussion that he would come with me. The night before I left for Nashville, we had the discussion and decided he was going to be with me for two weeks, up to two months in Nashville. And we were so excited and looking forward to that time together. The next day, I left for Nashville.
It’s a 12 and a half hour drive and I didn’t hear much from him that day, which is fine, but by the time I got to Nashville, I realized he already removed me from Find My Friends and I was so confused, because I thought we left on good terms. I felt super duped. And honestly, in that moment is when I felt the most clarity of who Ben actually was, and it all made sense. Everything coming to my attention throughout the two months that I knew him all clicked. Unfortunately, I had to be the one to get burned personally for me to actually understand, “Wow, this is who he is.”
Did you two talk at all after that?
After that, I didn’t talk to him for like, a month and a half, and then he reached out again and said he was talking to a previous cast member. The previous cast member gave him the advice to be on good terms with me and to practice reunion questions together.
I was like, “Why are you telling me that?” Like, even if that’s your motive to call me, don’t tell me that. I just should have trusted my intuition the whole entire time. But yeah, I was pretty disappointed but I’m very, very happy with where I’m at now.
What did you say when he said he wanted to rehearse?
I was like, “Is this why you called me?” This was, like, a half hour into the conversation. And he was like, “No, no, no. Like, I called you because I miss you.”
I’m like, “No, it’s not.” Like, you needed to get advice from a previous cast member to call me when we haven’t talked for a month and a half and we ended things on a really weird note because you removed me from Find My Friends when I thought you’d be in Nashville that week? So it was just more clarity to me of the type of person he is.
